I hemmed my pants unevenly last night. I’ve needed (needed…) new grey dress pants for a while now, and now with the new grey Hush Puppies I have and the sale at one of my favourite stores, I thought it high time I finally go get some. So, I got some. And, as usual, they were about 3 inches too long. They’re nice pants, so I didn’t want to do a poor job, but I also didn’t want to wait until I had more time to work on them, so I just went at them last night figuring it would make good use of the 1 hour I had to spare before I slept. I finished by 11pm last night, then basically passed out from tiredness immediately after. It wasn’t until I put the pants on this morning that I saw the unevenness. I considered not wearing them but I had this outfit planned out in my head and I didn’t want to be derailed from the plan just because of a half-inch. *sigh*
Anyway, unevenness makes me crazy. I’ll fix the pants, sure, no problem, but it doesn’t change the fact that I’m wearing them now knowing that they are not perfectly even. Sure, it’s true that no one will notice or even see me today, but it still weighs on my mind! It’s the reason why I like to wear skirts, why I go nuts about my eyebrows, why I only either wear sleeveless or long-sleeved shirts, and why I get layers in my hair. I remember being nine years old, my mom taking me to get my first hair cut from a salon, and crying myself to sleep because the cut wasn’t perfectly straight. If I aim for a messy look, I can’t see the unevenness and then I can live with it. For years I did short, messy, spikey hair. It was expensive. Now my hair is long and black, and I’m dying to fix the layers so that it doesn’t look so uneven as it grows out…
Everyone has their neuroses. I mean, hell, Daniel can’t sleep with drawers open. =D
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October 15th, 2009 at 9:21 pm
>I mean, hell, Daniel can’t sleep with drawers open.
It gets worse. It’s not enough that they are closed, I *have* to know that they are closed.
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