I miss Misfortunate, but I’m sure that a lot of it is because I’m remembering only the good parts. But because I’m aware that I do this, I know that it wasn’t perfect. I miss the good parts. I will always miss the good parts of anything – memories, foods, etc… This is not to be confused with wishing that I could have it back. I would never dare say that.
The question came up – even if not intended the way I’d taken it – of whether or not I would be looking to replace Misfortunate. The prospect never even crossed my mind and now that it has, I realized that the answer is no, I wouldn’t. It is what it is. I miss it out of a respect for the best of it, but I can’t recreate it, and I’m not looking to replace it. The truth is: I half-lie to myself to justify having invested so much time in it and I’m certain that upon careful and objective examination, I could shatter this happy image of it that I keep in my mind.
There may yet be better fits for me or there may not be, but either way, I will be open to and seize at whatever opportunities come my way. That’s the only way to live.
Tags: High School Memories, Self-indulgence, Unwarranted Justifications
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November 12th, 2009 at 11:16 am
MF does still exist, http://dennisn.dyndns.org/mf/ … albeit maybe it’s not exactly what you want — which appears to be a censored hypocritical boring blog about minutia. God forbid your coworkers should get offended by some literotica. (Is that actually true, or were you embellishing?)
November 12th, 2009 at 11:18 am
1. I haven’t censored anything you’ve posted. I deserve some credit for that.
2. Sure, the “reference” of MF still exists, but in a different “sense” (See Hilary Putnam on the difference between “sense” and “reference”.)
3. Yes, it is true that they were offended.
November 13th, 2009 at 9:29 am
Re: 2. Wrong. Imho, mf was far more vulgar and offensive in the beginning.
( http://dennisn.dyndns.org/mf/story.php?sid=3381 http://dennisn.dyndns.org/mf/story.php?sid=2870 etc ad nauseum.)
Re: 3. Your coworkers are offensive morons.
November 13th, 2009 at 9:36 am
Yes, but at least back then you didn’t boycott our events and not speak to us because we disagreed. THAT’s the difference. We were rude to each other, and it was expected and acceptable. It’s your new-found intolerance of our difference of opinion that ended it. Dumbass.
November 13th, 2009 at 11:15 am
Wow — your abilities to revise history are incredible. Dan “banned” me from coming to a party, and you call it that boycotting on my part. You guys suddenly lose interest in what mf always was ( http://dennisn.dyndns.org/mf/story.php?sid=5004 ) and you call that *me not talking to you guys*. You guys stopped being friends with me on facebook — and no doubt you would call that me abandoning you guys.
Oh, and you STILL don’t appreciate my “intolerance” to being raped — it’s just a matter of a difference of opinion, as you euphemistically call it.
Ugh.
November 13th, 2009 at 11:49 am
>>Dan “banned” me from coming to a party
Do you mean when Dan canceled the party, then you forgot to tell JP, and then JP showed up at our place unexpectedly. We called you and Diana to come by because he showed up, and only Diana came.
Is this what you are referring to? Because you refused to come when we called after JP showed up.
November 13th, 2009 at 12:30 pm
That’s the one. The one I cleared my schedule for, and told a friend to prepare his schedule for, which Dan had no second thoughts about cancelling on a whim, thus fucking up my evening — and then hours later equally whimsically flipping his decision. Clearly my time and presence isn’t worth anything to him. Or do you think I should have been a good dog, sat whenever told to sit, and jumped whenever told to jump?
November 13th, 2009 at 12:56 pm
>Clearly my time and presence isn’t worth anything to him.
Your time is worthless, not only to me, but also in general.
I mean, what else did you have going on? Did you, otherwise miss out on all nothing you had to do that evening.
>thus fucking up my evening
Heh, and I would so do it again – just because I’d know you’d cry about it for at least a year. Equal parts funny, and sad. I would tell you to get over it already, but damn – what else do you have going on. Obsess away then! Give your life some meaning.
>Or do you think I should have been a good dog, sat whenever told to sit, and jumped whenever told to jump.
Yes.
>Oh, and you STILL don’t appreciate my “intolerance” to being rape.
But that’s what makes it so funny.
November 13th, 2009 at 1:12 pm
And what about us? Why should we have entertained you when you expressed utter disgust in the manner of how we obtained the games for the evening? How dare you.
November 13th, 2009 at 1:36 pm
Yes — I did miss out on other plans that evening. I didn’t cry about it — I just realized how lame you were. I also didn’t express utter disgust at your deeds — a little disgust, sure, as no doubt you felt — but it was more that I didn’t really enjoy that game — not my taste in terms of song selection.
November 13th, 2009 at 2:25 pm
I’m so lame that you read and comment on my blog entries.
Hell, you’re so crazy that I still read your posts.