I never knew patience. I wasn’t raised to [deferring of accountability by blaming parents - check!]. So now as an adult, I find it exceedingly difficult to do anything with consistency. Patience is a prerequisite for success that I failed.
My work, study, eating, workout and social habits were built on indulging. I worked, studied, ate, worked-out and socialized until I dropped! Graphically, if I had compiled historical data and I could plot my effort as a function of time, we would see the recurrence of the following pattern: short periods of nothing, quick (accelerating/decelerating) rises that settle for months at plateaus, then sudden drops back to zero.
I’m hoping that calling myself out on it publicly will help me fix it. A lot of wheels in motion! The worst thing for me to do now is lose momentum.
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February 6th, 2010 at 8:14 pm
[...] I’m the type of person who often takes blind leaps. I don’t know if I like to do this but this is certainly what I do when I’m unsure of what choice to make, i.e. when all options seem equivalently as good based on the knowledge that I have at that point in time. I think that a number of years ago I realized that the plunge is never as dangerous as we think it could be. If we take this analogy a little further, I can say that I’ve been injured but always recovered. The dust always settles, things needn’t always be neat, tidy and perfect, and there exist no situations from which we can’t learn. So when I feel like I need a change, I look at what I can’t control, then take risks where I can. It’s better than life being stagnant, and me being indecisive. I close my eyes, take a deep breath, and go. [...]